Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Pissed at God

First off.. let me excuse myself right now and if you can't handle an occasional wordy dird than go ahead and hit the back button or whatever you gotta do because I'm gonna say whats on my mind tonight.

I am PISSED OFF at God right now..
Isn't the first time and I'm certain it will not be the last.
And don't worry about me going to hell for being pissed at God..
he's big enough to handle my anger and he knows I'll only be pissed for a little while.
God is the only person I've never held a grudge against.. atleast for long.

So - why am I so pissed?

There is a baby that entered the gates of heaven today at the age of 4 & 1/2 months old.
His parents also suffered from infertility and struggled for a long time to finally conceive him through the miracle of IVF.
So here's why I'm pissed, confused and just not understanding the sense in this.
God allowed them to finally conceive this precious baby only to take him away after 4 & 1/2 months of his life?

Job 1:21:

"And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD."

Here I am being selfish and self centered thinking of my own feelings towards this horrible event... If I feel this much heartache for the pain my friends are feeling in the loss of their baby.. their pain must be unmeasurable.

If you read this blog and are the praying kind.. please pray for peace for my friends and their family.

1 comment:

  1. Brandy, I am SO sorry for your friends, I commented earlier without knowing the reason behind your status. They will definately be in my prayers and you guys as well as I know you shar their pain.
    Love, Carrie