Braxton is now almost 4 weeks old!
He was born Oct 6th weighing in at 5lbs 8 oz, spent 6 days in NICU but is doing great now!
He's so adorable and I just love him.
All the pain, anger, jealousy and bitterness I felt towards my sister and her pregnancy all vanishes when I look at that baby and he wraps his tiny hand around my finger.
It still hurts that he's not mine or that I don't have one of my own but, its gotten easier.
Sure, I've still had some tearful moments especially those little moments when its just him & I and I'm holding him, feeding him and listening to him sleep.
I keep thinking that maybe God is looking down and seeing how good of a Mother I would be and maybe he'll finally bless Dan & I.