Wednesday, April 2, 2008


Why is it that women who are trying to concieve constantly punish ourselves?
No, I’m not talking about physically punishing ourselves... but mentally and emotionally.
For instance... for years and years and years I have subscribed to parenting magazines eventho I have no children...but I honestly enjoy reading them because I know one day when I do have a child... all that information I’ve read about different things will help in my parenting skills.
And another thing I do... I collect baby name books... so far in my collection I have 7. Most of which... have the same names in them! Explain that one! But... I will rifle through them and ask my hubby "do ya like this ya like that one?"... at this stage..whats the point? Its not like we’re pregnant and have a soon-to-be baby to name. I dont know... guess I’m just a glutten for punishment..
And I also listen to these sad songs about TTC and stuff... WHY? Why do I do that to myself!?!

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

What is wrong with me?

What the hell is wrong with me?
Am I the only one that feels this way?
When I see a newborn baby or the cutest little toddler.. I think to myself.. "man if I could only steal that baby and get away with it"... of course... I would NEVER EVER EVER do something like that... I could NEVER cause a mother & father so much pain... plus its illegal...durrr!
But the thought still runs around in my little pea brain from time to time... or I see these crack-whore mothers with a newborn... and I think to myself... only if they would say "hey do you want a kid"...and they were serious about it! I would sooo take them up on it!
anyways... what the hell is wrong with me?